My story is nothing like that of raintree's production of leap year. But, we do share a whole lot of things in common.
"If you are not too long, i will wait here for you forever." -Oscar Wilde
Monday, August 30, 2010
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Judging from the way my friends have stopped blogging, I guess it has lost its Magic or Its ability to make one feel better after typing it all out for the rest of the world wide web to read.
Or it could just be that they've outgrown their blogs and moved on to other outlets e.g. facebook. Personally for me, I just feel i can't keep up with my million and one thoughts that i often write something, usually halfway, and well, just leave it there...hanging.
I often do not post my entries, because after all, it is My personal blog and i decide what to share and what to keep as secrets.
What's been nagging me the most when i've tried blogging lately is the thought of friends and friendship. I have countlesss, COUNTLESS posts on that and i think one more might just make my blog puke and suffer from a hangover tmr morning.
Your judgement on friendship can start as early as 4-5 years old, when you first step into a play group/kindergarten where friends mean the world to you (or not). Sadly, after a couple of years, I got jaded and believed that no one person can have a best friend. Don't get me wrong, I loved my Primary School, my many friends i made PLUS that was mainly where the right moral values were taught to me but i just lost my grasp on friendship and having a best friend. Completely lost it.
To me, calling someone my best friend is as good as tying the knot, saying 'i do.' It's scary. It's a commitment you can't pull out of as and when. So when a friend of mine called a certain friend of mine my 'best friend' it sent shivers down my spine.
Sadly, I'm back to being that jaded person i was where best friends do not exist, where each man lives for his own. I hope someday my love-hate relationship with That term gets resolved and the whole fairy tale idea of having that 'perfect' friend actuallycomes true.
Disclaimer: Please note that this entry is not directed to any one person in particular. It's just me, being me.
Or it could just be that they've outgrown their blogs and moved on to other outlets e.g. facebook. Personally for me, I just feel i can't keep up with my million and one thoughts that i often write something, usually halfway, and well, just leave it there...hanging.
I often do not post my entries, because after all, it is My personal blog and i decide what to share and what to keep as secrets.
What's been nagging me the most when i've tried blogging lately is the thought of friends and friendship. I have countlesss, COUNTLESS posts on that and i think one more might just make my blog puke and suffer from a hangover tmr morning.
Your judgement on friendship can start as early as 4-5 years old, when you first step into a play group/kindergarten where friends mean the world to you (or not). Sadly, after a couple of years, I got jaded and believed that no one person can have a best friend. Don't get me wrong, I loved my Primary School, my many friends i made PLUS that was mainly where the right moral values were taught to me but i just lost my grasp on friendship and having a best friend. Completely lost it.
To me, calling someone my best friend is as good as tying the knot, saying 'i do.' It's scary. It's a commitment you can't pull out of as and when. So when a friend of mine called a certain friend of mine my 'best friend' it sent shivers down my spine.
Sadly, I'm back to being that jaded person i was where best friends do not exist, where each man lives for his own. I hope someday my love-hate relationship with That term gets resolved and the whole fairy tale idea of having that 'perfect' friend actuallycomes true.
Disclaimer: Please note that this entry is not directed to any one person in particular. It's just me, being me.
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