u noe, we tend to miss the finer things in life... good friends, family, alcohol, that lover who cheated on you..
we wait and linger around that one day when we can have it all again. Yes, tht time with the good friends, family, alcohol and lover who cheated on you.
The things we do.
I realised that if there's one thing that i would and could eat every single day, it would be salmon sashimi. every freaking day.
and i realised if there's one thing that i would and could listen to, its something that ceases to exist.
I think, i think many things but i just dont say them.
I think you made me a hard-er person. I don't know if i should be grateful for that.
Though i dont say it, i will be there for u, when u need me to, when u want me to, I will be there for u.

U noe, life is like clearing out ur inbox, u just HAVE to get rid of some of the stuff that u have been holding on to for a wee bit too long.
i fear many things.
i fear death, unlike sam, the thought of paris hilton dying as well doesnt really help ease the situation. im surprised no one's killed her...yet.
i fear the fate of friendships. As silly as it sounds, i fear where we would all be, 2 yrs frm now?
i fear not being able to fit into my clothes.
I fear people with haphazard emotions. You never know whats next on their agenda. Or rather, they dont stick to what's already on it.
I fear losing coby.
I fear being just a number.

Why do we moan and groan about our lives when we, ultimately are the deciders of our own fate? We cant change circumstances, but we can choose how we want to handle it.

Only you know the significance of this pic, and only now do i understand how much it means to u. I love it, i really do.

So its good friday and i hope everyone is having a....good friday. YES i noe its not a very happy occassion, ive been in a christian school, long enough. shut up.
So anyway, Im tired for no apparent reason and i was on the verge of sending out adverts to employ someone/anyone who would clean my room ( wadrobe and shoe rack included...plus O.T. no cpf cuts). Any interested applicants? Didn't think so.
So rit has been vegetarian for 40 days. U make us carnivores proud.
While i was out yest, a female friend exclaimed in exasperation how she has fallen for a guy who is in a rship BUT wants to be with her. He's just not that into you. He likes her, she likes him. He's just not that into you. He feels for her more than he feels for his gf. He's just not that into you. He wants to be with her. He's just not that into you. What shall i do rev? huh? oh..He's Just Not That Into You. Sorry.
Book getting to my head? I dont think so.
I just feel u shd love someone who loves you just as much. And reciprocates. Or at least makes that bit more effort than you do.
People with girlfriends or Hung up over ex-es need NOT apply. Thank you very much.

So in the past week of whirlwind of activities, birthdays of 4 very important people in my life passed by:
Namely My 2 brothers, my baby coby and Pri.
I wish them well, and hope they had an awesome time.
And after a long, long time, my family of 5 reunited in a foreign land: Perth, Australia, for the oldest brother's graduation. parents were more than excited to visit the place tht my eldest brother is possibly going to be spending the rest of his life. and then to adelaide where their youngest daughter is possibly going to be spending the rest of her life....ha.ha.ha. i just saw 3 daggers being thrown my way.
Anyway, so,
The family was together,
I looked fat as ever,
and we lived happily ever after.

Before taking one of the 134 flights that i took in the past week, i remember walking into dymocks to buy a book. It finally came down to The Reader and "He's just not that into you." And lo and behold, considering the mood i was in and the hot pic of Jen aniston on the cover, you wouldnt have guessed which i chose.
Ok so, lets be honest. Im sure at some point in our lives we've all been in love. Maybe not particularly with a man (or a woman) maybe a pet or an inanimate (thanks facebook) object. But im sure we've been there, done that, knowingly, unknowingly.
While falling in love is a somewhat easier and more natural process, falling out can be like walking through hell, with all its fury.
This book, as much as i thought was gonna be a STORY book ended up being a self-help. And i, for one dislike self help books. But As stupid as it may sound, this book was empowering. It removes the grey area of relationships and mens' behaviour. It teaches women to take things as either being black or white and basically puts them in control of situations. NO more what if's, should i? Buts? U either take it or u leave it. So goodbye to all those girly meet-ups discussing men and their primitive behaviour. Now we can have our martinis minus the men-talk.
So i was having a debate with a cousin not too long back bout my escapism (according to her) to australia. She had one question for me "are you not strong enough to handle the pressure?"
To which i ask "are you afraid to venture out of your comfort zone to experience life, out there?"
Dont get me wrong, I AM grateful to my motherland for all she has offered. My education, my formative years, my friends, my values. I went through 21 years of my life here in the country i was born. It passed me by like a breeze, that till today, i wonder, where DID those years go? Did i lose it to the excessive pressure masked as our education system? Hmm, i wonder. You may call it an escapism but i see it as making a decision on the type of life i want to lead. I guess, then again, we all have different views on how life should be led. Some find comfort in leading a controlled life, while others just want to be. Whatever it is, may God bless you all.
Thank you guys, for everything. For the adivce pre-trip and the post-trip 'debrief'. I love u guys loads.

"And with my best, my very best, i set you free"