I dont get why people put such awful pictures of themselves on facebook. I noe im no model myself, but at least try to look decent in it, not constipated.
i'm having soo much problems packing and i have no idea why. It wasnt this bad when i was leaving for adelaide last yr, the bag doesnt seem big enough no matter how big it already is. I have approximately 2.5 more hrs before i leave and im still sitting here deciding what to do with my toiletry bag, if i shd put in an extra pair of shoes or if i can squeeze in just one more top. OOOOone more only.

I have vowed not to meet up with pri, sha, fa before leaving for a trip 'cos all the excitement that i was feeling for the trip disappears almost immediately and i start to miss them soo, soo, soo bad and before i noe it im wailing "i dont wanna leaaaaave" and hearing "then dont leaaaaaave"in response. NOT helping.

samantha liow, i hope we make tht adelaide trip in march. pls get back to meeeee. i need yooou like water, like breath, like raaaain. i need youuu like mercy from heaven's gaaate.
so yeah sam, tell me how ur planning goes.

and oh God, please help me survive the transit and 11 hours journey.
Cousin and i were laughing at the choice of movies screening in our individual flights. different airlines but either flights no better than the other. looks like i have to resort to the tamil movies to put me to sleep, yettt again. and my trusty old ipod.

I thought of you and the time we jumped the fence. Pool side, stripped down we dove right in. I'm crushed black and blue, but you know i'd do it all again for you.

Gonna miss you guys like F.. and pri, good luck for the exams. Access card ;)

ja ja ja jaaaaded, yeah i'm the one that jaded you~~

soo the whole hoo-haa bout valentine's day is all over. thank god.
i did miss you last night, more than the past few nights, since nov 26 2008, but it did come to my realisation, after quite a bit of denial, that if its not meant to be, then its not. we meet, we get to noe, we fall head over heels in love, we leave, we miss, we realise and come to terms with it. hopefully.
I will keep missing, SO, TOLERANCE frm my friends will be very much appreciated =)
out of sight, out of mind. but at the same time, distance makes the heart grow fonder. if distance was not an issue. if only.
"rev's not a fighter"- fa
U were right. Not when it comes to love, No.

Its been soo HOT. its 'pissing- off' hot. Its like 33 degrees, "i need a cold drink every 5 minutes" kinda hot. it was soo scorching hot today i felt like stripping in public and screaming. both, very ugly sights, but i felt like taking it out on the weather.
i still have absolutely no idea what to wear for my cousin's wedding, havent packed, havent looked through the wadrobe, have no idea of a dress that i can see myself buying.
Im glad im getting out of the country.NO OFFENCE..hor.
i wanna pack all my friends and bring them along but australian customs will prob send me and them to jail. sad. very sad.
it felt weird not having you there last night. it just didnt feel complete.
singaporean men are beginning to smell nicer. at least in my part of the island.
i went for a super long run, like the one i did 2 weeks ago and i loved it. then i got back and had ben & jerry's =)
so at the end of the day, a positive and a negative make a negative.

This entry is dedicated to 3 amazing people: Pri, Sha, Fa.
Its funny how it all started with 3 people sitting right at the back of class. 3 of the shortest ppl (ok sha, u werent THAT short). How we wld hv pri's double chair. How we wld enter class early in the morning and she'd get pissed when the chair went missing. Hahahaha!
When fa realised how cool we were, he decided to be part of the dynamic trio. And the rest as they say is HISTORY.

Sha:
I love all the late night phone convos tht we have, discussing girls, boys, toys. haha. How we would talk bout the future. How we dream of having hot chocolate, the finest cheese, lying on a field lookin up at the stars in a far away land. How we came up with the funniest nicknames and made haowie feel left out. LOL.

Fa:
I remember u as being the only person to ever see me come close to crying. I'll never forget the looks we exchanged. Blooooody doc.
One i can never get pissed with n never gotten pissed with. U make me laugh till my tummy hurts and blush till u actually see red on my cheeks. U make me see the joy in crystal field theory.

Pri:
I have soo much to say to you cos u have been the one person who has been there through it all.
Youve taught me soo much more than i could ever imagine. Every step of the way even after we've left school, through our arguments, our assigments, our SBJs. We've been through more downs than ups and we've spilled our hearts out to each other. There have been days we've sat in silence together n days we never stopped chattering. You've stayed true to the person that you are and hv always been. I love you.

from 2006

to 2007

and 2008.

i swear, i love my friends soo damn bloody much.
Rit, Sam, Xx, Pri, Fa, Sha.. i think i wld prob have gone crazy without you guys.
I love the fact tht everything just spills out, in no freaking order, when im talkin to rit and sam.
I love the fact tht Xx noes exactly how im feeling w/o me having to say a word.
I love the fact that pri, fa, sha dont judge me when i start getting emo and singing "run baby ruuun!"
I think depression is almost impossible when you have the greatest friends by your side. When you know they will always be there for you, no matter what.

so im in a bit of a reflective mood, will come to that later.
i was slightly disappointed with The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. I feel the movie dragged on for a wee bit too long, but some things said in the movie had soo much meaning.
"I hope you live a life you are proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."
Yes Brad did well and so did Taraji, but i can't say the same for Cate. As much as i loved watching Brad in all his youth, i was still wondering how loooong more there was to the end of the movie.
Halfway through the movie, it also donned on me how ive abandoned two of my greatest passions, music and ballet.
I remember, since young, how i had always wanted to be part of the Royal Ballet School in London. I would practice my ballet steps soo hard, give it my all in my exams every year. Auditioning round after round and competing with ballet students from all over singapore to get a part in the nutcracker at the kallang theatre in 1998 was probably one of the highlights of my ballet education. 8 years.
Watching a ballerina perform, every point, plie, pirouette is just breathtaking. People mock the grace of ballerinas, but its grace itself tht brings out the beauty of ballet.
I love ballet.
Sooo, anyway, after the movie, 2 of my cousins n i headed to the pretentious looking japanese restaurant that Sam, Rit and i always walk past on our way to cafe iguana or wherever in clarke quay, but never enter. Until today i duno what its called Sun, Moon whatever... Food was good, not as pretentious as the restaurant that i went to with the family for my 22nd bday (though food in that restaurant was awesome). I could live on Japanese Food.
then we headed to HELIPAD, where my cousin was flashed the torchlight on her face by the bouncer (though SHE/HE looked too small to be one). We were like"what what what what.."(Sam n Rit, this is to the tune of you noe who)
And on a totally different note, i think i would make a lousy actress or model. I have the dumbest facial expressions.
I don't wanna jinx it, but im really looking forward to meetin up with pri, fa sha tmr- "Sooo much crazinessss.."

oh yes, Sun meets Moon dining.

Finally he's gotten wht he deserves.
Rafael Nadal wins the Australian Open.

i need to start running and swimming again! i rmb when rit n i used to hit the gym or go swimming a couple of times per week, i felt like i could conquer the world. now i just feel like i can roll around the world.