i can now officially say im BAAAAAACK! after all the surprising and surprising you, surprising me.
dinner with rit and sam on fri was awesome.. the laughter, the gossiping, the look on rit's face when she saw me, the awesome awesome company. dont need to fight over webcamming (for the next 2 months at least).
catchin up with the lil' gang: pri, sha, fa was extremely FUNNY. tht was when the whole "surprising you surprsing me" happened. Thank you guys for the cake, madagascar
( or according to Gab, mega desker), dinner and the effort u guys put in.

i now noe wht it feels like and i apologise for giving stupid advice like,
"just keep ur mind busy, dont think too much and go out meet ppl,"
'cos missing someone/something can be CRAZY. so crazy, all u hear running thru ur head are songs tht hv always made u cringe e.g. Michelle Branch's "Everywhere."
Doesnt help when uve got half his playlist on ur itunes or when u guys r chattin online n,

______ says:
i miss u

rev says:
im missing u like f$%&

____ says:
then come baaaaaack!

i noe my frens hv got my back. i noe they will be there to catch me IF i fall.
i missed u guys soo soo much and im glad to be back =)
let's catch up like crazy for the next 2 months, and i'll see you in 2 months time.


En jy my hart in jou hande vas, vanaand

I've had a pretty horrible week of exams but like what mom told me, "whats done can't be undone" so i shall f$%^ it and get done with my last paper and come back hooooome for the holidays.
And like i was telling Sam, coming home is gonna be soo bittersweet. There's soo much that im gonna be leaving behind but at the same time, soo much to come home to.
Sigh.

I just spent bout half n hour of my life looking through a distant, distant friend's album of photos with her boyfriend of 6+ years. I dont really noe what made me do that but all i know is that i felt that feeling of warmth rush over me as i looked thru her photos one by one.
I remember having this conversation with a friend, not a very pleasant one, probably one ive had many times with many other people, but its always left me thinking when im at my most emo-est.
We all, deep down inside, long to be loved. As much as we deny it, as much as we try to tell ourselves how independent we are, as much as we try not to look at love in the eye, we all noe that we DO want to be loved.
Maybe some of us dont feel the urgent need to 'cos we have love of other forms from other people e.g. parents, siblings, friends, pets.
My perception of love and relationships has changed quite a bit. I still embrace the fact that love is something sacred. something that u share with someone special. not something that is said soo easily or taken too lightly.
Relationships on the other hand is based on one's perception. 7 months ago i would have said stick to one rship and make sure it lasts.. but now.. i guess i would advice someone to take ur time, dont give urself away too easily but meet as many ppl as u can, have good, clean fun but let ur guard down at the right place n time. don't do something that makes u doubt ur decision, even for a second.
And when ure sure uve found the right one, never let him go.

So Halloween 2008 was bittersweet. It was the last party we had before the exams and the last party im prob gonna be havin with these guys before i leave for HOOOOOOOME. What started off as a decent halloween party turned into a costume party (at least for the girls). In case ure wondering what i was, i was a princess gone totally wrong.
Some pics of the deco and the party.

Exams started officially yesterday. I was wetting my pants the entire night/early morning before the paper. Also had my worst attack of homesickness yet. Sheeesh.

5 more papers to go and everyday is one step closer to being home. Cant freaking wait.december is gonna be such an awesome month 'cos there are loads of stuff to look forward to. Talking to dad is The best thing in the world 'cos he keeps remindin me how much closer i am to "going for breakfasts/lunches/dinners together" 'cos no one else in the house seems to do that with him. LOL. 'cept for coby.

Ahh, and COBY. My baby.
Soon, soon =)

good luck for the exams if ure having any. and to my dear friends who have ord-ed, just enjoy the sweeeeet taste of freedom for a few weeks before u start worrying bout what to do next. =)
Missing everyone loads.