Christmas 2007 was pretty awesome (even though i didnt have both my brothers with me).

22nd dec - dinner @ Shoba's place

24th dec - Christmas eve @ blu

25th dec - Christmas with the family! @ aunt's place

1 more day n the eldest brother returns! yippee yay!

Merry Christmas!



6 days. 6 more freaking days.

he opens doors for you, gets you your drinks, offers you his drink and drinks yours when yours sucks, whispers in your ear to check if you're okay in the midst of a conversation with friends, he playfully stacks cushions on your lap 'cos he knows you're short and it obstructs your view of the tv while watching Sex and the city , he watches over you though you've assured him that you're fine after downing a couple of glasses of alcohol, he cuts down his alcohol intake just 'cos he knows he has to bring you home safely, he cracks you up by speaking in different languages, he carries himself with such charm infront of others by saying the right things at the right time, he smiles at you from across the room full of people during the "To me, you are perfect" scene in Love Actually, he carries the puppy when she jumps on you continously when your hands are full with glassware and you cant entertain her, he offers to send you home right to your doorstep (literally) and many, many times he makes you wonder if he is for real.

'cos you give me something that makes me scared alright

Exile on mainstream looks like such an awesome album. i shall go BUY it. haha!


".. you have to know what the odds against you are.
Then you have to ignore the odds and realise it's up to you to determine the odds. Only you can decide what's true and not true, what's real what's imagined.
The only obstacle to your success is YOU."

- Will Smith


10 more days!!

Multi vits can do wonders.
I AM lookin forward to the holidays and festivities: Christmas, New yr's.
I can't, can't, can't wait for the 31st of dec. 2 more weeks = 14 more days. please feel free to countdown with me and share the joyyy.

I had an awesome holiday with rit and sam. not much running ard. Just the right amount of laziness and activity and... alcohol. Not that we usually drink ourselves silly. of course we had our classic moments of lying in bed at 4pm to have a nap but end up gossiping or sam changing the channel to some korean or jap #$&@ and rit and i rolling our eyes at her, late-night swims which will prob cause us pneumonia in future (knock knock knocking on wood). what will i do without these wonderful people.

My dad's birthday on saturday was awesome. it started off on friday night, with birthday wishes from my eldest brother, 1 hr before the stroke of midnight..how kancheong. then i realised that perth is an hr ahead of us. how could i forget.
and at 1145pm, when i couldnt take it anymore, i sang happy birthday to my dad. just me, myself and i. my mother wanted to have no part in the singing at all. she was happy just giving him a hug, how un-exciting. met up with dad's side of the family for a "surprise party" later on in the evening. it was an awesome party cos dad's sister, who's living in australia, was here as well. i could see the contentment on dad's face as he saw all his siblings reunited.
and i received news that yet another cousin of mine (she's 17) is going to further her studies in the land downunder, next year. so that leaves the family with:

9-6= 3

3 kids (cousins) left to keep the spirit alive in family gatherings.
OH JOY.

Oasis' "Champagne Supernova" floods me with memories. Mostly good. But there's that one post which i did way back in march 2005, which never fails to leave my mind, cos the lyrics were soo apt to the situation that i was in:

17.03.2005's post

"How many special people change,
How many lifes are lived enstranged,
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall,
Faster than a canonball,
Where were you while we were getting high?"

Yes, i do know wht it feels like to lose someone tht i've kept close to my brains, hands, legs, fingers, toes, hair and heart. But i've never blamed tht person for 'getting lost'. The fault shld nv solely lie on one person, cos it takes TWO to tango, TWO hands to clap, TWO gals to confirm tht a guy is cute, but only ONE to tell me tht im the 'messiest' Big Mac eater. EVERYONE gets caught up doin their stuff. i believe one shld nv blame another for nt contactin him/her. Look at it frm the other person's perspective (ALWAYS look at it frm the other person's perspective) if ur fren is always busy, let him/her call u when he/she's free, instead of msging/calling at the wrong time n pissing both the parties off.(And if ur THT busy, wht makes u think ur fren isnt?).
The times spent 2gether were precious (very precious infact). Let me put this straight "THEY DID MEAN STH TO ME" im nt feelingless and emotionless.. if u scratch the surface hard enough u'll find the most sentimental idiot staring back at you.yes, i used the word idiot.That fren who was there for YOU, will always b there for YOU. But keep this in mind, when a r/ship between two ppl fails, its cos of both parties. That my fren, is sth u hv to rmb.It's funny how ppl associate you to beautiful creatures, it's flattering. really. but im not one who flies away. i sit and wait. wait for the time when u really need me, n rmb me, n come back to me. cos like wht a dear dear dear fren of mine did for me, i shall do the same. n tht is to wait for you to return, wit open arms. "

hehe. so..
where were you while we were getting high?

and i feel, we never stop re-thinking bout our r/ships with people till the day we leave this world.

I've got nothing to lose.

Very recently i went through a pretty rough patch with a friend. A friend whom i deemed closer than close, whom to me at one point in my life, meant more than the world to me. It wasn't the pain of hearing words that have never been uttered in our conversations that stung me the most but the fact that all those years of accommodating and sacrifice had literally gone down the drain. The amount of trust, promises and dreams shared between us just faded away with every second spent justifying each of our actions. It's more sadness than anger that i feel when i think about the whole situaiton. And honestly, i feel that we've both had enough of our emotional energy drained away bit by bit, second by second. Yes it's sad that it's got to end this way but if we do cross paths at some point in our lives once again, i wonder what it's gonna be like.hmm.

It's come to that time of the year, when i start dreaming about my eldest brother returning back home. I'm not exactly looking forward to Christmas this year, 'cos the entire family isn't gonna be back to spend time together (eldest brother's only returning on New yr's eve, jen's stuck in virginia). I did try to bring the christmas cheer back by getting a christmas dress this year ('cos usually it's a 'let's throw together what i can find!' kinda thing). I guess having something pretty to wear helps in a way.


I'm never speaking up again, now there's no reason.

i finally visited the doctor this morning. his unusual look at me as i described 'what's bothering me' just made me burst out laughing. He prescribed some medication plus antibiotics (like that's of any surprise) and told me to come see him again if i didn't get any better.
i've not had more antibiotics prescribed to me in my entire life than i have had this year. and its been month after month after month.
Antibiotics, to me, are like exams. They make me feel sick in the stomach and i'm constantly counting down to when they will be done with. I don't think anyone has as much a phobia of antibiotics than i do of them. yeugh. 6 days.
I intend to rest at home, spend time with my baby, do absolutely nothing and get well so that i will be ready to partayyy with sam n rit next week. cant wait, cant wait.