It's been too damn long since i've felt like this, to the point where i was beginning to give up feeling this way. U noe, that light-hearted, cheery, "throw-me-down-fifteen-floors-and-i-will-still-survive-without-ANY-injuries" feeling.
Maybe it's the weekend, maybe it's the fact tht i didn't have to wake up this morning and crack my head on what to wear to work, maybe cos im extremely contented with the winner of survivor cook's island.wooo!
OR MAYBE it's 'cos i spent half the day with my bestie the way we used to 5-6 yrs ago; laughin at the stupidest things ppl do, EXPLICITLY _____ing out _______ _____, getting amused by the tiniest details that she remembers 'bout our exciting past, dodging the ugliest singaporeans we've ever met, cursing shops tht sell beautiful, BEAUTIFUL clothes (still not over it), trying to be polite with each other's choice of earrings but failing horribly n buying a top that has earned the title of "my most favouritest top in the world" with her.
OR MAYBE cos it's been 27 years since the two most, most, most important people in my life hv been married. tht's 27 years of living, accepting and loving each other for their flaws. As i watch them age together with soo soo much happiness and content, i can't help but to wish and pray that MAYBE, just MAYBE one day i'd find someone to do that with as well.
OKAY tht's another story for another time.
To my dearest dad n mom who have showered my 2 older brothers and myself with unconditional love, HAPPY 27th ANNIVERSARY. =)
I really, sincerely hope that this feeling doesn't wear off soo quickly.

Sigh.. so i went to our ravalatashafalicious blog and saw the last bulleted point tht pri typed in:

• rev's..soccerball..hmm.

SIGH! i hope sha and fa are doing fine, camouflaging with the grass, bushes and trees.
And on a "not-so-sure" if it's a brighter note, i'm employed. i thot i wont be sayin this for the next 5 yrs or so. haha.
every night after i reach home, dump my bag on the floor and self-massage my back there's only one thing i say to myself ,
"NOTHING can b more emotionally, physically and mentally draining than the past 3 yrs"
and i guess that's whats making me go on with my day to day drudgery.

To those who have been askin me "What the #$%& do you want me to get you?"
I only have this to say:

"If you want to call me baby, just go ahead now.
And if you would like to tell me maybe, just go ahead now.
If you want to buy me flowers, just go ahead now.
And if you would like to talk for hours, just go ahead now."

As i step away from the teenage years with a mixture of sadness and relieve i can only hope to be armed with maturity, sensibility and sensitivity to face whatever that lies ahead.
So.. wishing me luck for the future might probably be the best gift you cld give me. =)

what makes friends good, better or best friends?
Is it the amount of time that you spend together? or the things that you share together? or the number of friends that you have in common? or maybe the way he/she manages to read you like a book, the way no one else can.
there are friends whom u spend years getting to know but u never go beyond small talk.
on the other hand, there are friends who jus within 5 minutes of introduction, manage to strike up and hold a decent conversation with you for hours.
there are friends whom u once considered good friends, but after..
super long phone conversations, braving mat rock together, doing chem assignments for you while you grouse bout your horrible day, waiting for you (with open arms) to get over and done with a phase of your life and come back to her...
you began to realise tht these people arent just good friends.they become better friends. and when you suddenly realise how much you're both willing to give to make this friendship work, they become best friends.
and these friends don't come around as often as we wish they would, which isn't a bad thing because it teaches us to treasure them more. Like no matter how large or nice the grp of ppl you're with, you still wished tht you cld have her there with you.. or when you're out shopping and see soo many things that remind you of her, you wish you could buy them all for her. Or when you sit down for a few minutes on the eve of the new year and think back on the things tht meant the most to you and she appears on your mind, i guess that's when you truly noe who your best friend really is.
So for this new year, i hope you manage to find that one friend or grp of friends who really mean THAT much to you. 'cos when you do, life somehow becomes more worthwhile living.
Happy New Year =)