And i swear, God has his little ways of showing tht he truly is listening to our prayers.
Early Christmas morning, my eldest brother arrived from Perth after a superbly long wait. And that started off the day of loooong, SINCERE hugs tht i was about to give and receive.
Christmas was spent as usual at my aunt's place(more hugs) with the wholllllle (finally!) family getting together. Hilariously fun-filled day with gift-exchanging, yummy food and most importantly Love. One of my cousins also got baptised yest which to me is a really special thing cos according to a couple of my frens, it isnt normal to be baptised on Christmas day, which makes it special. heh.
Am just glad that EVERYTHING fell into place at the right time 'cos i could never imagine a Christmas without the entire family together.

yipee!
SO.. i was clearing out my comp (hv given up clearin out my wardrobe), when i came across these pics which brought a huge smile to my face. The class which left me a whole load of memories to treasure, 04S1.

OOo yes, and for you Scandalous lil' one ,

In many ways they'll miss the good old days,
Someday, someday.
It hurts to say but i want you to stay,
Sometimes, sometimes.
When we were young oh man did we have fun,
Always, always.

This morning, this happened:

-sha- says: revvy bevvey dont be lazy sharry warry is waity for ur next blog post

rev says: my next blog post is full of pics.

-sha- says: and when do u tink i can see it?

rev says: in bout 1 hr cos my comp very slow today. duno y.

-sha- says: or is it the person?

-sha- says: hahahahahah

rev says: LOL

rev says: beat u ah!

-sha- says: in malay ah..sometimes beating means love

rev says: so love means beat also rite?

rev says: so.. love you ah!

-sha- says: ur leaving me high...

-sha- says: and then dry

=) my fellow heat, Shahid. and sorry, blogger is pissing the hell outta me cos its not allowin me to post pics. but don't worry sha,i'll have it posted before your enlistment. haha.

When it comes to love, lies and relationships, i don't quite know the protocol to follow. EVERYONE says just follow your heart and everytime i do, i make a mad dash for the back door. if i could ignore the outlandish stares, i wld probably be asking my friends:
"so what happens after he confesses?"
"what if he is too nice and doesn't bug you for an answer?"
"how long before its too late to give him a reply?" and
"what happens if i avoid him completely?"
from the outside looking in, i think,
"Easy! just give him a straight answer. don't avoid him, tell him how you really feel."

What a whole load of bull crap.

Maybe its my perception of a relationship that stops me from gettin into one or comin close to one.
'cos to me, once you're in it, you stick to it for good. come what may. so any guy whom i choose right now, i choose forever (unless of course he kicks me out of his life).
call me old fashioned, call me dumb,
but at the end of the day, i won't be left numb.
(okay FINE, i needed something to rhyme).
which is why everything (and those close to me also) gets thrown off its equilibrium when im faced with matters of the heart. i plunge too deep into thought and i ask myself too many questions and often come to ONE conclusion: I'm not ready for a relationship.
just recently, a couple of my classmates n i were talkin about how we have put off bgr till after the exams. n now tht the exams are over, some of us STILL put it off.
my reason?
'cos i feel that i'm not here nor there. im somewhere in between and i don't quite know where i'm heading. i'm unsure of myself and my next step...so wht makes me think that i would be able to make clear, sound decisions if i were in a relationship right now?

And something tells me that this conclusion (recall: I'm not ready for a relationship) is gonna stay with me for a long, long time till i find myself and what i truly want to accomplish in life. or when someone comes by (n i noe how u guys are waitin in anticipation for this to happen as well) and proves himself to be truthful, committed and mature.(and of course it helps to be good-lookin, rich, patient, romantic, thoughtful, sentsitive, hot, smart....). call me niao, materialistic or whtever mean word you want, but if i can't get the one, then i might as well remain single all my life.
where's that back door?

the week has come to a close, my so-called busy week. it was kicked start by the KL trip with my cousin, in which we encountered many, many "oh shit!" moments as well as rofl moments. (ew, i cant believe i just used rofl). midnight heart-hearts, hot chocolate in hand, overlookin the resplendent view of the twin towers. amazing.
Rest of the week was spent shopping with Ritty and Sam, dinner with a couple of my classmates (hidden gems.lol) and a visit to Vintage Bar (wooo!). loved every minute of the time spent out and thank you guys for making it an even more wonderful experience.=)
but wht kinda topped the weekend wld be last night, the time spent with my cousin (the brother of the cousin whom i went KL with). this amazing fella of a cousin whom i shared most of my childhood with and who stayed by my side when we were told tht we were too young to play with our older siblings (lol!). for some reason we lost tht bond after upper primary till yest. SO i was over at his place last night and boy did we catch up on EVERY single freaking moment in the past 8 yrs or so. he was soo amazingly sweet to stay up with me to talk (while my other lazy bones of a cousin went to sleep) for approximately ten hrs.it was an effable joy watchin him talk like how he used to with me. and yes, tht "wall" tht i usually have surrounding me crumbled for the first time in a long time. =)


A silence I can't ignore,
like the hammock by the doorway we spent time in, swings empty.

So i'm gg away with my cousin, for 3 days and 2 nights..no biggie.. but when i come back it's gonna be busy busy.
I mean, compared to the past week tht i just had, it IS gonna be a busy week. infact, any week's a busy week compared to the past week. and the past week, well, its been very un-busy. so i shld start getting busy. BUT next week i'm NOT gonna be busy with IMPORTANT stuff e.g. work. I'm gonna be busy with the unimportant stuff which are important to me e.g. spendin quality time with the ones who matter. So if you think im gonna be too busy to reply smses or calls, think again. 'cos after all, im not gonna be all tht busy.