i realised it's been eons since i've been in here. much has happened. having to battle with my temper has become way too hilarious for me cos it usually ends up with spontaneous, modified & unintentionally mean lyrics popping in my head.
...she's being a little b**** I think I'll get outta here,
Where I can run just as fast as I can,
To the middle of nowhere,
To the middle of my frustrated fears...

the not- so- funny lyrics of Natalie Imbrugila's Torn just before PTM, which i unknowingly played incessantly on Doo's nano.
I'm all out of faith,
This is how I feel.
the lyrics are a pure exaggeration. i would never let myself fall into such a pathetic state. NEVER.
Thankfully everything(the PTM) turned out fine in the end and my dad told me ,
"Everyone has faith that you will do well"
i can't let them down.

and there're the super lame songs..no wait, let me rephrase tt..the songs r absolutely beautiful but I'M the super lame one who allows these songs to play in my head to keep myself awake during physics tutorials,


My all- time favourite,
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow.
which unfortunately makes my mind wander even more cos of its sweeter- than- saccharine lyrics.

and,
Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey~...
(We were doing a question on the planet Jupiter)

S.I. has taught me to appreciate the original artist/s of a song

alrighty, enough bout song lyrics.
as i was telling my soo very supportive friends, i realised today how much i miss running.
i guess my co- HT was right, running makes you happy. =)
infact, it makes you more than happy
i gotta thank Grace for her persistence and skinny for agreeing to my spasmodic decision.
Surprisingly, its not song lyrics but physics formulae tht pop into my head when i run.
force = rate of change of momentum per unit time.
Woopee! Garnet finally won overall champs. Always knew we cld do it.

i realise that sometimes people have such wrong perceptions of one another without even finding out if its true. i don't deny tht im guilty of doing that, but today, i've realised the immaturity of it.

how do you push away the anger and disgust tht engulfs your whole being when u see someone who puts on a facade? even the lyrics above don't seem to work.
i guess i could sing,
"be yourself is all that you can do"
SERIOUSLY, it is...

i was gonna talk bout Coby, but i guess that would take me another hour or so. shall save it for another time. tc! =)


Daniel V, Daniel V, Daniel V.~

i had the TIME of my life last night.thanks to the excellent company tht i had: sam, gracie & mat. u guys r the sweetest.
RIT we missed u. please please get well quickly alright?
the evening started off on such an excellent note with them buying me three beautiful gaberas, each gabera representing each of them (they made me guess who chose wht. so rit it's your turn). i asked them wht the occassion was and they said
"No reason. we knew you were depressed ('cos of the exams) so we bought em for you"
How 'aww'able is tht?
we had dinner at Hog's Breath Cafe. food portions were HUGE and yummy. atmosphere was great. now everytime i pass the cafe (which is everytime i go to school) i'll b reminded of you girls =) we talked bout suicide, rape, molest, mental insitutions, abortions, weeping, desparados, desparados who think they're not desperados & uh, alot more weird people tht we knew personally n thru people's fren's fren's fren's fren.

we decided go get a few drinks n went to Wala Wala which was packed. so we moved next door to Tango's which was equally packed but we managed to get a table. n this was when the real fun began.
*sorry if you don't quite get the jokes.

GRACIE: i want more salt.
MAT: there's lime.
ME: yeh. just suck it and drink it.

(couple of mins later)
GRACIE: bla bla bla bla .. rite?
ME: sorry gracie say tht again
GRACIE: hmph! u stick a co*k into your ears whenever i start talking rite?
ME & MAT: a WAT?(bursting out laughing)
GRACIE: I said corrrrk!
MAT & ME: Noooo!
(5 mins later)
SAM: hahahaha! she said a co*k.


GRACIE & ME: (to mat & sam) i think u guys shld stop drinking, we'll finish up the rest.
SAM or MAT: ok. can't drink anymore anyway. am feeling weird already.
GRACIE & ME: bla bla bla.. we can hold our alcohol very well...bla bla bla.

couple of mins later,
MAT: there's a cute guy over there
SAM & GRACIE: where? oh..
ME: where?
some time later,
ME: where? (still searching) where? (now turning back to the 3 of them 'cos i realised they were so silent)
MAT, SAM, GRACIE: (silent & staring at me)
MAT: he walked away like so long ago.

and then there was the ultimate..
(GRACIE excused herself & went to the ladies)
ME: woah. i thought tht guy's shoe was a cat.
MAT: hahahahahahahaha!
MAT:hahahahahahahahahah!
MAT:HAHAHAHAAHhahahahahahahaha!
MAT: (screaming in laughter now) HAHAHAHAHAAHAH!
SAM: (staring at mat and staring back at me in shock) what's wrong wit her?
ME:i dunno. (giggling)
MAT: (in tears now) HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
ME: Mat stop laughing, im gonna puke. SAM bring her out!
MAT: (finally stopping) hey...... where's GRACIE?
SAM & ME:hahahahahahahahahahah!!!
MAT & ME: HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHA!
SAM: (wide-eyed, helpless loooking at both of us laughin like maniacs) GRACIE!! (where r u? save me!)
apparently, GRACIE could hear us from the ladies.

of course we had some decent conversation as well. like,
SAM: u noe, i like to plan what my future house would look like. (n she described it to us)
MAT: me too. n i like to plan my wedding as well.
SAM & GRACIE: WEDDING?! (in unison)
n tht sparked off another conversation.

we decided it was time to get outta Tango's when we were all getting sleepy (amidst all tht activity?!). miraculously we were so awake when we stepped out. snapped more pics, which i shall post when i receive 'em.
we will b doing this again, WITH ritty, yippy!
cant wait till then.
love you girls n thnk you for tht wonderful, incredulous evening which did take my mind of everything. *hugs*

Daniel V, why do you have to b oh-so-beautifully talented. (but gay)
n yes, i stupidly found out who won this season's project runway. shittity-doo-waa. =(

tuesday is finally here. the sweeeet taste of freedom.
over the past week i've missed out on soo much:
Last week's dose of Daniel V
The world cup finals
COLDPLAY'S CONCERT. boo~

IF i had managed to go watch tht concert, i prob would b the most satisfied 19 yr old.
imagine, watchin two of my most favouritest bands in the same year.
missing out on the world cup finals wasnt all tht bad, cos i had two of the most trusty footy news 'disseminators' texting me updates on the match as they were watching it. thanks ritty and sharry =) i did catch the repeat last night though, as suggested by ritty.


couple of people i'd like to thank for keeping me sane:
PRI- the late night msgs, the silly jokes, the hidden fears, the assurance tht ur just a table away when im doing my papers, u dont noe how much tht means to me.

SAN- for tellin me not to study too much and stress myself out (so tht we can both get MCs/childrens' letters for our parents on PTM)


SHARRY-for not forgetting to 'pop' by and ask how im doing & ALWAYS making me smile with your super cute msgs. u always make it seem like everything's gonna turn out alright, n usually they do.

RITTY-just the thought of you reminds me tht there's something to look forward to when the 'storm's' over. well, it pulled me thru this exams =)

HAOWIE- just thinking of u asking me "how come u dont talk bout me?" makes me laugh. thank you for always texting me wit those weird smileys at the end of each msg. haha. Im really lucky to have u and sharry beside me. w/o u guys, lessons would b depressing. u guys always amuse me with your sudden voicing of thoughts and irrelevant questions. i like.

Pri and San, today large day hor. =)


And perhaps it's common fears,
Or uncommon hearts,
That makes us insincere,
And torn apart.

i managed to satisfy my cravin for yoshi yest (wit my skinny =)) but it's got me cravin for sushi now.
i've got the rest of the weekend all planned out, it's just up to me to execute em. (they're STUDY plans, not social plans..yes, i noe *yawn*)
but after next tues i have lots to look forward to, so tht would probably b the driving force for me to make it thru till tues.
oh yes, by request, the one who's sleepin at my feet right now:

this is us,

n him tellin me he's had enough,

i've gotta teach him to smile.

And so i confessed. i told him tht i loved him. it wasn't anything dramatic, jus a soft whisper into his ear and a very gentle kiss on the top of his head jus when he was about to fall asleep. n u noe how i knew tht he understood? he did his cryin sound thingy and scratched on my room door for a good half an hour when i went into my room to sleep . Cobs has NEVER cried for me or scratched on my room door for more than 10 seconds.
me being me, queen of evading interaction, jus stood on the other side of the door, with a smug smile on my face.
heh, i got him back for makin me fall so deep.

I struggle for the words and then give up,
My heads up with the birds on the t-hut,
A little piece of mind that I know better,
Than the plain disgrace of all my letters.

THIS is why i don't watch soccer. BRAZIL deserves to be in the finals and WIN the world cup.
but then again, there's no better compensation than England being kicked out by Portugal. woot! Portugal rocks my socks! England can lick my socks.
n Ritty, u've got one new member joining your "I used to like France but i hate it now" clan.
(though i never liked France from the start.)
maybe it's psychological. it's like, no matter how prepared u are for a particular subject tht u've never done well in, u will always have tht fear at the back of ur mind and deep inside your heart tht u're gonna flop it. maybe the Brazillians had the 1998 world cup in mind... (tht's such a silly hypothesis by the way, 'cos they won the World cup in 2002) in my opinion, i think the french were just super lucky.
oki enough! i shall stop lamenting on the past.

there're a coupla men (actually 3 men and 1 boy..no, 2 men and 2 boys) whom i wld like to thank.

The 2 men:
Jon Jonsson for always having tht same lovely smile on his face when i look up from my books. Kevin for singing ever so sweetly and taking my breath away as i plough through the damn books .
"I know I promised you forever ,
There's no stronger word I can use,
To reassure you when the storm is raging outside,
You're my safest place to hide"

SIGH~

The books have not made me delusional. Not yet.

The 2 boys:
Sharry for having the knack to noe wht to say when n being an essential stimulus to my inspiration to study.
n lastly Sharry's best friend a.k.a my pet doggy Coby (Cobs for short), who's stolen my heart and my time. he's such a heart-throb i tell ya. every single day he licks my toes and i fall deeper in love with him. Totally smitten.


He's beautiful,
Such a beautiful disaster.