i felt complete today.
completely COMPLETE.
wht i thought was lost n probably irremediable.
but they proved me wrong, the 3 of them.

the 3 who wld prob b the closest pre-uni frens tht i'ld ever have.
the 3 whom despite my multiple imperfections make me feel like im on top of the world.
the 3 who have sat thru countless tutorials & lectures wit me the past 2 & a half years n managed to live thru em all.
the 3 who have taught me to laugh, psychotically.
the 3 who never hesitate to give me their honest opinions (especially on my choice in GUYS)
the 3 who sing the silliest songs and say the silliest things to make me laugh (when im tryin so so so very hard to b angry for more than 1 minute..grrr)
the 3 who can come up wit spontaneous poems durin MATH lesson.
the 3 who have shared wit me too much to lose.
My lats, sharrhid and farrrriz.

America's either blind, deaf or both!
Ace AND Chris the bottom two?
tsk tsk..
I think tht both Chris and Ace's last performance brought out a very different side of em..
n voters shld have at least seen the effort put in by BOTH of em...
Chris' vocals were close to impeccable and he was CHARMING..he was smooth, he was heart-melting..
Ace on the other hand was pleasant to look at.. shaky vocals but WTH.. he was sooo "Awwww"
all in all, i do have to agree tht the last show was prob the best episode i've seen..
elliott was cute!
haha..
n jus as i was about to change everythin tht i've been doin wrong the past 2 yrs n sacrificin all my silly little indulgences (yes tht includes NOT watchin A.I. on wednesdays) so tht i can have mighty huge indulgences in future, i came across this article in God know's which issue of Time mag, open exactly at the page wit the song lyric "Ambition makes you look pretty ugly"-Radiohead (Paraniod Android), starin right back at me.. n all i cld do was smile.. cos honestly, it's damn bloody true. think abt it.
but WTH.. i've still got to make myself look pretty ugly to get myself started on lookin ugly pretty.. or uglily pretty.. or prettily ugly.. or pretty ugly pretty..
umm..yeh..


"It's a big girl world now,
full of big girl things,
and everyday i wish i was small"

okay..so it's the 5th week of the term.. 5 more weeks to the june hols, 9 more weeks to mid-yrs, approximately 17 more weeks to prelims.. n.. ummm.... 25 more weeks to A-levels...
now change the word "weeks" to "days" n start hyper-ventilating =P...
anyway, im done wit all my freaking 'SPAs', physics & chem so there's a HUGE burden lifted off my shoulders..
to some of you extra terrestrial beings out there, u might b wonderin wht's the big deal in carryin out an experiment?.. well, honestly? there's no big deal..its jus tht when it comes to the ACTUAL practical (not the practice ones) i tend to do the things tht i would NEVER imgaine doing.... try thinkin along the lines of "Mr Butter fingers (with extra butter please) meets Ms slippery burette/plastic container/conical flask/beaker..." wit teachers breathing down your neck, waiting to spot the tiniest, smallest fumble or mistake u cld make...yeahhh...
but WHT THE HECK..it's OVER!!! wooohooo! (n i have to admit tht i am satisfied wit how i performed for each and every SPA i've had..no regrets) so tht's ONE obstacle (for the year) down! (n million more to go) woooohoo!
school has been the way it has always been.. 'cept tht nowadays whenever my h.t. walks into class there's this weird, intense, tensed atmosphere in the air tht is starting to weigh more than i can hold up.. the ppl who have been keepin me happy, cheery, laughy, sane, awake r the ones i've got to thank..comin to school wld b a MAJOR dread if not for u guys.. every action tht u guys do e.g. waitin for me even though u might b late for school as well, allowin me to go on n on bout unrealistic dreams, bickerin wit me in ur self-discovered language (which to YOU sounds like tamil), tryin to compete who can copy notes faster durin lectures (yes, THT'S how bored we get), modifyin a skinny handwritin to make it damsel-ish, beggin HER not to use the P-word, judgin wht's hot n wht's not (the latter has been over-seen/used).....
i got to add tht i think im gettin too obssessed wit Grey's anatomy tht my drivin force to complete an assingment or task is so tht i can become a doctor (intern first) n fall in love wit hot, reknown surgeons who cant seem to get enough of me....sigh~ isnt tht enough to make u wanna become a doctor? haha!.. well nah,.. it's jus awesome watchin the intricate brain work and hand work involved in carryin out operations/surgeries n the fulfillment u get out of helpin patients in every possible way tht u can, meetin people from ALL walks of life..even though i noe the drama depicts the life of a doctor/intern thru rose-tinted glasses..but wht the heck... it's a propellin force which did wake me up (a teeny weeny bit late though) to put in wht's left of me for my CTs..
speakin of 'wht's left of me'.. i think tht song by nick lachey is so uplifting..hahaha.. i heard it this mornin while i was starin in disgust at the standin broad jump mat outside the gym n i felt instant enlightenment tht led me straight back to class...
i think simon cowell rocks
n there's AMERICAN IDOL TMR! woohoo~
okie.. gotta go study to become a doctor.. LOL.. see ya!

i jus watched the MOST mind-blowing, amazing episode/s frm Grey's anatomy.
To those who DO follow this drama series, watch out for season 2's episodes 16 & 17 (or is it 17 & 18?) cos they're a 2- part episode...the titles of the episodes are "It's the end of the world" and "As we know it"..
it revolves around death, friendship, love and it makes u think...think back on your life n how u're actually living it.
it made me wonder how i wld react if i had to watch my best fren trapped in a life-threatening situation and all i can do is stand beside her and watch..
a particular scene (involving meredith and christina) depicted exactly how Ritty wld have made me react...by tellin her something funny, naming 5 guys, or tellin her bout my life so tht we kept our mind off the current situation..
if it cld reduce me to tears, it HAS got to b something..
u guys jus GOT to watch it.....=)


" 'Cos you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button,
So cradle your head in your hands and breathe.
Just breathe."

Aaahh!!..
i jinxed em!!
but they ain't out, yet..PHEW~~~ (am talkin bout Ace and Elliott)
anyway i've realised tht i not only have a self-confessed chris fan living under the same roof as me, but i also an/a Ace fan as well..HURRAH! haha..
n they're my dad and mom, respectively. NOW i noe where i got my good taste in men from (haha)
the last American idol results show was soo moving!

Ritty i miss you too!!.
i truly understand wht u mean when u said whtever u said in the testimonial.. it wld b really wonderful if we cld jus retreat to tht world of ours where b****** and hypocrites dun exist n nothing else really matters 'cept having fun, laughing, reminiscing n loving each others' company, tellin each other tht we cld keep awake the whole night but fall asleep the next instant, feelin woozy at the mention of the word woozy, recalling the names of 5 awesomely cute guys (we wished we cld have) to check tht we were not woozy (hahaha!), knowin wht the other's thinkin but jus shuttin up n smilin to ourselves, holding each other's hands reallllly tightly when we were about to see bsb LIVE.. sharin one of the best (n possibly the worst) moments of our lives together, wit each other ..sweet memories..
i swear i cant wait for this yr to end.. then we can start experiencin all this all over again AND hunt down BSB as well (n maybe stumble upon a chris concert while we're out there, somewhere). hahah..
so till then.. let's jus press on n show em wht we're worth..haha.
LOVE YA LOADS RITTY!